Anyone know what i'm going through?

I hate the waiting each month to see whether it has been my lucky month and when my period comes I break into tears it also makes it hard for me as I lost a baby at 21.5 weeks in feb and now my sister in law is 3 months pregnant so the family never stop talking about her which upsets me more. I will keep you in my prayers and hope this is both our lucky months take care and lots of baby dust.